January 2015
Welcome --
"Learning to trust is
one of life's
most difficult tasks."
(Isaac Watts)
Do you practice what I call "shallow
trust"? -- believing in someone or something just enough to call it "trust", despite knowing what you're doing is really hedging vs. trusting.
I liken it to saying you're swimming, when in reality, you're wading in the water -- maybe even all the way up to your chin -- yet
you're still wading. Or are you waiting?
Waiting for what? -- a guarantee, proof that all's well, an obvious safety
mechanism?
That's the irony: what you're wading/waiting for doesn't come to you until you practice the art of trust -- assuming your self-protective inclinations will either be met or unnecessary.
To this day, despite all my years and experience in the healing arts, I still catch myself in shallow trust -- reading a situation, projecting an outcome, securing an exit strategy -- just in case. I can't remember the last time I used or even needed an exit, yet I fall into that
false sense of security to ward off what "might" happen, which takes me entirely out of the moment.
And the practice to come back to the present? As ever:
Stop.
Breathe -- take several breaths
if need be.
Check in with your Bodymind.
Are you wading /waiting?
Are you in the moment or hedging
against the "future imperfect"?
Allow Your Self to just be --
and surrender to the moment.
…. not the moment you think merits distrust, and not the moment you think sorta, kinda, probably should be trusted.
Give your Self over to the person, the situation, the possibility by jumping, diving, falling, and splashing around in the water -- instead of playing is "safe" in the shallow end.
"You may be deceived if
you
trust too much, but you will live
in torment if you don't trust enough."
(Frank
Crane)
